October 2009: Money, Giving and High Voltage Everything
If you’ve ever had an intense healing session, or committed to a major change/pattern break you’ll know that everything related to the issue you want to clear will come up in your face in a big way. It is the moment you finally commit to choosing healthy relationships, that every ex from relationships past, or people like them, knock on your door. It is the moment that you commit to a healthy diet or workout routine, that a reason for skipping your morning gym class comes up. These things are not necessarily a test from the Universe, or cause to get disheartened about your level of commitment or a sign that deep down we all love to sabotage ourselves. They are more of a natural response to your commitment, and a sign that you are committed.
How so? When we truly decide on a deep, cellular level that we can no longer live within a particular energy dynamic, and thus commit to something new, everything not in alignment with the new energy will come up for addressing and release. Say that you decide: “I want to let go of my fears around not having enough money. I want to feel prosperous and abundant.” Well, in order for you to truly move into the ‘prosperous and abundant’ level of your reality field, any part of you that is living on the ‘scarcity and poverty consciousness’ level has to come up so that you can face it, acknowledge it, clear it, heal it, kick it out, love it or do whatever you feel guided to do with it. Unless you do this, any attempt you make to enter the ‘prosperous and abundant’ level will be temporary because your old energy will inevitably pull you back sooner or later.
Now, imagine what would happen if humanity as a collective decided: “You know what? It’s time for a new reality! Yee-haa let’s go!” Imagine what would happen if every individual decided: “Wow we are entering a new reality. It’s time to move up into who I really am!” Going by what we know about the healing process there’d be a whole lot of chaos flying around as we move through the tunnel and out the other side to our new lives. Well guess what? Humanity has made this decision, and most every individual has made this decision. Good news right? Well, in the long term yes.
The problem we have now is, these decisions have been made on our higher levels of consciousness, with most people being completely unaware that they have committed to a new reality. All that most people can see are lives, and a world, in turmoil. Economies are crashing, jobs are being lost, relationships are breaking up and unexpected new ones are being formed, people you used to know seem strange (or you seem strange to them), the house or geographical location you used to call home is no longer yours whether by choice or force, and you have no idea who YOU are anymore. When all that you used to define yourself collapses, who are you then?
On an inner level, all these issues that you thought you had dealt with, or at least had been able to manage, are suddenly rearing their heads louder and uglier than ever. If you’ve had issues with trust, control, anger, asserting yourself, owning your power, looking back instead of enjoying the present, fearing the future instead of getting productive in the now, giving too much or too little, receiving too much or too little, then your life and sense of self over the past year, and especially over the past month, may resemble a demolition site. Although things may appear a little worse for wear and you are feeling more than a little battle weary, the good news is you are being reborn. The bad news you have already discovered: birth ain’t an easy process.
I recommend that you take out your journal and write a list of all the issues that are very clearly in your face right now. What is your higher self trying to tell you? What aspects of you are ready to shift? Your answers lie in your daily behaviour and mood swings of late. Has something in particular been pushing your buttons? Have you gone off at your partner or kids and later wondered what on earth got into you? Have you noticed yourself obsessing about “I should’ve done that instead of this” or “I should’ve achieved x and y by now” and realised how horrible it feels to keep beating yourself up in this way for not being ‘good enough’ or choosing ‘the right path’. Have you realised that as much as you are asking for more support from a partner or the universe, you can’t seem to let go of needing to control everything, or don’t trust that someone other than you will get the job done? Have you exploded like a volcano more than usual and realised that although you believe ‘each to their own’ and ‘everything happens for a reason’ you don’t really like it when things happen in a way, or in a timing, other than what you wanted? Have you noticed the way you communicate your needs could be clearer, calmer or more assertive? Are you tired of your lack of self worth and wish you’d stand up for yourself already? Are you sick of not believing in yourself and ready to do what you’ve always wanted to do?
If you have spent the past month grumpy and upset more than usual with issues popping up left, right and centre, woohooo! You are on the home stretch. This means that you are no longer okay with being anything less than your true, highest possible self. This is not the time to sit in the crappy feelings. It is time to put pen to paper and get conscious about which old patterns are flaring up for your attention. Once you get clear on this, write down what the opposite would be. What do you need to do more of or less of? The more you commit to your new energy, yes the more old energy will come up at first. However, as long as you stay committed to the new – even amidst the inevitable dust sure to rise, the dust will eventually settle and there you’ll be: a new version of your self.
This same process is happening on a collective level. In the US we can see it with the raging debate going on about health reform and we can see it with the unstable economic situation. The majority of people want everybody to have the same right to good healthcare, and for everybody to have the right to a secure job and safe place to call home. As a result, all energies not in alignment with these basic human rights are being heard and seen, louder and clearer than ever.
The other night I watched Michael Moore’s new film “Capitalism: A Love Story”. I cried from beginning to end, with surges of rage and bouts of laughter in between. In it he mentions a quote from the Bible ‘we will be judged by how we treat the least among us’. If this is true, and I believe it is (regardless of our various personal opinions about that particular book and who actually wrote it) we are in for a big slap. Watch the movie.
Among my personal ‘button pushing’ moments this past month, a big one has been about money. I was wondering why certain wealthy people or wealth-oriented people pushed my buttons so much? It wasn’t about jealousy. I know what it’s like to have lots of money, I know what it’s like not to have money. I know that money is purely energy, and the flow of it in your life is 100% determined by how you are feeling and thinking about it, about yourself and about life. Yet, I found myself swinging between wanting to help people manifest their ideal life, including abundance if they so desired, and being turned off by the marketing machine that some of the personal growth industry has become that now seems to use ‘money money money’ as its mantra. I asked my guides, what’s up? The message I received was “Focus on Giving”.
I felt that their message is this: Money in and of itself is not the root of all evil, nor is it the pathway to happiness. It is simply a form of energy that can be gained and used from a place of ego or a place of heart and spirit. You can gain and use it in a way that lessens others to raise yourself up, or you can gain and use it in a way that allows you to follow your bliss while supporting, inspiring or empowering others to do the same. There are plenty of examples of philanthropic billionaires, like Oprah and Bill Gates, who generously use their wealth to benefit others ie they GIVE. There are also plenty of examples of greedy and unethical corporations (ultimately run by people) who put profits above and beyond everything else, and if someone has to die outside a hospital because they don’t have health insurance or are evicted from their home of 40 years because they missed a mortgage payment then so be it!? These people are clearly non-giving in the worst possible way. Money isn’t the problem here, it is a lack of heart and spirit, the moral fibre of our humanity.
At the same time as my guides were talking to me about giving, two synchronicities came my way. My next article assignment for Empower Magazine was titled: The Universal Law of Giving so I am enjoying writing that (will be out in Dec/Jan Issue). In an unrelated event, I was also sent a copy of a book about to be released: 29 Gifts by Cami Walker. (http://www.29gifts.org/) It’s her personal story of the profound healing and life changes that came about when she followed the advice of South African medicine woman Mballi Creazzo: Give something away every day for 29 days. It doesn’t have to be large or monetary. It can be your thoughts, words or prayers. It can be your time, touch or food you make. The only requisite is that you give with mindful intention, from a genuine place of giving for giving’s sake. I started the “29 day Giving Challenge” last week and have noticed several things: Anytime you give with this mindful intention, you receive in return more than you gave. I’m not just talking about the natural good feeling you get from giving, I am talking about tangible unexpected things coming to you; a surge in income, a free movie invitation, a generous gift, a new opportunity. That is not the purpose of this challenge, but it happens, and it just goes to show that the Universe can only give to us when our hands and heart are wide open.
While many of us are natural givers, too often we dismiss our giving as ‘oh it’s nothing’ or we don’t even think about it. I’ve noticed however, that when you give with intention, there is a deeper sense of realisation around ones ability to make a difference, directly influencing your sense of worth – which answers why giving with intention opens the door to allowing yourself to receive more. It takes your attention away from self-pity as you pour your energy into helping others. It makes you appreciate all you have, and all you have to offer.
So, this giving challenge allows you to see yourself and life in a new way. It raises your awareness of your true self-worth, and thus simultaneously brings up all your ‘I’m not good enough’ stuff, and I realised I still have some of that inside me. Most people, especially those with lots of things on their to do list, big ambitions and masses of ideas for creative projects do have this ‘not good enough’ stuff going on. Instead of celebrating our successes we tend to focus on all that we haven’t yet done. To take us back to the main theme of this month, this is one old energy pattern that I’ve had enough of.
The message of the moment is clear: we are being called home to our true divine natures, and to be anything less than that feels downright awful. While uncomfortable, it sure makes it easy to determine what in you still needs to shift up and out. While I encourage you to sweep away the old, keep your predominant focus and attention on the new emerging. When you catch yourself in an old pattern or response, stop, take a breath, and shift gears. If you feel in despair or unsure of your next move: Give Something. One moment at a time, one response at a time, you can and will become born anew.
(c) Dana Mrkich 2009
Dana Mrkich is a spiritual intuitive, inspirational writer, radio host, author of A New Chapter (Zeus Publications), and creator/teacher of online course Your New Chapter. She offers Soul Sessions via email, phone and Skype to clients all around the world, containing the guidance and healing insights you most need at this time as you step further into your true self and new reality. Subscribe to Dana's Monthly Newsletter Visioning the Dream Awake for Monthly Visions, articles, interviews, courses and more or please visit: http://www.danamrkich.com/