Fertility & Flowers: blooming in their own way

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We have this little flower plant on our front porch. It doesn't bloom very often or for long, but when it does it is so beautiful. It bloomed this week, just as I went to get some fertility tests done. I thought that was a good sign ✔️ As I watched the screen and saw an egg preparing to ovulate I was so excited that my body was doing that!

After nearly 3 years of trying to conceive our second bub, at times it has felt like my body has packed up shop despite every effort to revive the reproduction factory. Then suddenly there it all is on screen. "Uterus looking great, tubes wonderful and clear, juicy egg growing and getting ready to ovulate!" said the sonographer and gynocologist who bless their hearts must see this ten times a day but acted as enthusiastic as if it was the first time ever.

I can see why so many women conceive after having this particular test, or starting the prep for fertility treatment. Seeing the visual on screen of your body doing what it is meant to do, combined with experts by your side cheering your body on, is the fertility equivalent of a basketball game pep talk 5 minutes before the buzzer sounds. It's the coach saying "You got this." As time goes on, the more I've appreciated how long this has taken. I've introduced so many awesome clean, organic, superfoody foods into my daily diet. I stopped working until past midnight and am now tucking myself into bed much earlier. I've chillaxed on the to do list and deleted things from my schedule that were depleting me.

I've realised how completely ridiculous my former worries were about "the sibling age gap" and now deeply trust more than ever that all is unfolding as it should.
I've let go of trying, and I've trekked down a dirt road in Mexico, looking for the local curandera healing woman's house so she can do her famous Mayan Fertility Massage. It was important for me to try everything natural and holistic out there before I could let go of the belief I could never do IVF. If that turns out to be the next step then so be it.

For all you out there on this fertility journey, it sucks and it is special all at the same time.

Full Moon, fertility and so many feelings!

 

A Full Moon was rising on our last night at the Rez last week. The Lakota don't have a word for goodbye, instead they say Toksha Ake meaning see you later or see you again. Big Wopila to everyone and everything there for as usual a truly powerful and beautiful time.

I was feeling so emotional prior to that last day. It was a Full Moon, Venus was and still is doing her Retrograde thing, and we completed our final thank you ceremony with the Medicine man and spirits, closing a circle we started 6 years ago when we did ceremony to help us conceive our now almost 4 year old Jaxon.

I am thinking of you all right now who have had, or are having, issues with fertility, women and men both. And thinking of all fathers and mothers, aunties and uncles, grandmas and grandpas, who are all joined together be it united during conception issues, or anything related to the healthy presence of all of our precious children.
 
Lots of love to anyone needing it right now x

(c) Dana Mrkich 2015

Ix-Chel, Mayan Goddess

Ix-Chel, Mayan Goddess of Love, Fertility, Midwifery, Medicine, Rainbows and Weaving!

There in the background you can see the ancient remains of her Temple. It is located on the southern tip of Isla Mujeres, Mexico (translates to the Island of Women, so called because of the many carved images of women found there in honour of Ix-Chel). Perfectly positioned (as are all ancient sites!) on the highest point of the Yucatan Peninsula, where the Sun's rays hit Mexico first each day.


For all who sent her a prayer from your heart, or feel to do so now, I gave thanks that she hear all those prayers. xx

Correct your thinking!

Our minds can get stuck on a loop, repeating phrases that literally keep US stuck! I really noticed this the other day when another mum I met shared that they were planning on having another baby this year. I said: "We're trying too." Only suddenly it struck me - my tone was so gloomy! I may as well have said "We're stuck too, sad face sad face" OMG is this depressing tone the vibration I've been carrying on this topic?! Obviously yes! With fresh inspiration I took a leaf out of her book and re-launched the spring in my thought step. From that second on I decided to choose to correct my thinking: "We are planning on another baby too!" Ahhhh, that feels MUCH better!

Whether it is a thought keeping you stuck, or the thought is a manifestation of an underlying sticky emotional/energetic issue, (and it is ALL being revealed this powerful year) correcting a thought pattern loosens everything up in a good way. Try it right now with something you have been stuck on. The difference in feeling, and thus vibration, and thus what you can energetically allow vs push away is incredible.

Until a new way of thinking becomes your natural new normal, set affirmations can help to re-direct and re-wire your usual thought grooves. Stick positive phrases relevant to you up where you can see them every day. Inject them with feeling - that is: say it like you mean it. Visualise it like it is already real.

If you don't believe this works, say the below examples with feeling....and then say the opposite to yourself. Notice the difference in your body, how it changes, depending on what you are telling yourself.

The following came through in a session for a client the other day, and might be helpful to some of you right now too:

The way forward is now easy and smooth for me.

The doors allowing great changes that help people are now swung open for me.

My voice is heard and encouraged. My ideas are put into action.

Who has used thoughts and affirmations to turn things around? Share your stories here!

(c) Dana Mrkich 2015

Delays and Divine Timing

Christian and I have been trying to conceive our second little one for nearly 18 months now. We got everything physical checked out, all good, and from there let it go to divine timing - until the timing we 'expected' didn't happen as we expected it to. 

I'm sure many of you can relate to the myriad of emotions that you go through when you want something that isn't happening, if not in this particular area then perhaps with love or work or a home situation. Trust turns to frustration, anticipation strolls into despair, you talk yourself back up to trust again and basically repeat that cycle a lot! 

Living in that cycle is not fun, so I did what I encourage everyone to do: I asked my energy, and our little soul yet-to-come, to show me what I needed to know. During this time, I've realised things I needed to see more clearly on multiple levels, cleared things I thought were long cleared and released things I didn't even know were there! 

The other day I found myself feeling such gratitude that the conception didn't happen when we thought it would, because the not-conceiving triggered the opportunity for so much physical, emotional and energetic healing and clearing. It feels like we have been on a full circle journey. We are back now at the beginning of letting it go to divine timing if it is meant to be, but we are much transformed by the journey of this past year and a half. 

So if you are waiting for something, or someone, ask: what do I need to know? Ask that question in your journal, get a healing session with a practitioner you trust, pay attention if a few people mention the same thing to you, (I kept seeing the name of a specific vitamin everywhere and it was one of the things my body needed). 

Our energy has a wisdom beyond our conscious awareness. Our energy knows so much about where we are going, what we are ready for, and what more we need to know or experience before we are ready where we are not yet. A wise man on the street in India (true story!) once said to me: "If we got everything we wanted when we thought we needed it, life would have no magic, no mystery, no meaning, no purpose."

Take some time tonight to give thanks for what is. It is all a precious part of your experience, taking you to wherever you are going.

(c) Dana Mrkich 2014