Once upon a time we could be out of alignment with ourselves, out of alignment with our heart/truth/higher guidance/Source, and somehow get by. Not necessarily smoothly or healthily or comfortably all the time, but if we wanted to ignore or avoid something we somehow found a way to distract ourselves from our inner truth and highest knowing.
Now however we are dealing with a whole different ballgame. There is a distinct feeling of 'you're either in your flow/aligned, or you're not' with not much grey in between. The 'in your flow' moments feel fab....synchronicities happen, unexpected miracles and abundance manifest, you feel happier and lighter, there is a sense of openness and expansion.
The 'not in your flow' moments feel terrible, and I'm being polite with the wording there. Tightness, tension, chaos, drama, mental anguish, emotional anxiety, physical health issues, it is not a happy place to be. On many levels it is painful, and in most cases it is unnecessary pain.
I've had my share of both moments, and I have learned this: our experience of the moments of our life have nothing to do with what is going on outside us. I have to paraphrase Eckhart Tolle here and say that 'the exception is for maybe 5% of the time when there truly is a devastating occurrence in our lives'. The other 95% of the time our mind is running the show with its script, totally influencing how we feel, and thus completely driving our vibration, determining what we attract, and affecting the way in which we perceive and respond to our days and lives.
I've been thinking about this a lot over the last week or two because I had a series of massive lightbulb moment wake up calls one after the other, all alerting me to the fact that on some level part of me has been focusing on the 'what hasn't been done yet' lists, or on some issue of a situation that isn't really an issue, only my mind is used to focusing on issues and so an issue it will find!
I have been alerted to how much this has physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted me, and how much that state in many ways became my 'normal'.
So I sat with this thinking how can this be? How can a person who has done so much inner work, and had moments, years even, of relative inner calm, come up against what feels like was the Universe's loudspeaker shouting: "Iceberg ahead, you have 5 seconds to turn your ship around!"
And the answer I kept receiving was: our growth and evolutionary journey is a spiral, not a straight line. We deal with things on a conscious level, as I have, and as most of you have. We move forward. Then we reach deeper and higher levels of ourselves, and we recognise and transform the subconscious stuff. We move forward. Then we reach deeper and higher levels of ourselves and we start uncovering ancestral patterns, (as is being proven by epigenetics, a scientific field of study). We release those. We move forward. Higher, deeper, forward. Higher, deeper, forward.
Over the recent years and months, high frequency energy has flooded this planet in a way it never has before in our lifetime, and it hasn't done this here for many lifetimes before that. October and November were mammoth, and I'm sure it won't be the last of months like that. This month it feels like we are dealing with the aftermath of a major influx of light, as we attempt to process, integrate and embody the incredible upgrades we have all received.
If you, like myself, have found yourself up to your ears in stuff you thought you had long dealt with, I hope it offers you some reprieve to remember that you are on a spiral journey, not a straight line.
In my experience, appreciation and gratitude for what is, for all you are, all you have, all you have done so far, all the love that is around you, and all you have to offer just as you are right now, has been the most effective, most rapid 'flick switch' tool, to get me in my zone and in my flow when I realise my mind/emotions have taken me elsewhere. The difference between being clicked on, switched on, connected, centred, whatever words you want to use - or not - is peace vs noise, clarity vs static jumble, abundant flow vs worry and 'not enough' type thinking.
This isn't about getting to a point where your life is perfect, you have millions in the bank and no worries. There will always be something going on: something that needs doing or buying, a system that needs re-structuring, that's life, that's growth and that's exciting! I feel that we have such high expectations for our lives and our world, especially this lifetime. And that is a really really good thing. Yet, if we set the bar for our happiness at 'when that happens I'll be happy' we're never going to be happy because there will always be new goals and new dreams to attain.
So, what is the point of this message today? I guess it is a reminder to all to take a moment (most moments if possible), to congratulate yourself on who you are today, on how far you have come, on all you have in your life right now. This doesn't mean you just sit back where you are right now forever: rather, appreciation for what is sets up the best possible energy from which to move forward in an easeful way.
It is a reminder to not beat yourself up for not doing enough, or being enough, whether it's regarding the small day to day domestic chores, or the big global 'we've got to shift this world' level. Say to yourself each day: I have enough time. I have enough money. I have enough space. I am enough. My wife/husband/family/friends are enough.
Finally, it is a reminder that life is a spiral not a straight line. We are going higher, deeper, forward. Higher, deeper, forward.
Lots of love, Dana x
(c) Dana Mrkich 2014